A housefly's lifespan is only about 10-25 days long. Do you think that when it passes away, it feels like it's lived a long life? Does it feel satisfied? Does each day quickly pass, or does its life feel more consistently paced since it has no perception of time besides the setting sun and rising moon? I feel like a housefly dies with the same completeness that we do as humans.
In a month, I have to decide whether or not to re-contract and stay another year in Japan. It's interesting how easily we can brand experiences based on the time they existed. Some people have already decided to hop on board for year number two. That's awesome. But it's hard for me to quantify this experience into minutes and months. Some days in Japan give me more life and inspiration than I felt like I've experienced all year. And other days blend together seamlessly and are forgotten by the next week. And then we feel bad about that. "I should do more." "I should make every day here count." What a Western way I've been thinking. Most moments in our life ultimately don't matter and are mere stepping stones to the ones that will, but boxing them into days makes it seem like they should. It's like one of those mosaic collages, where thousands of pictures are intricately placed and up close, feel important, individual, real...but only when we step back to see the bigger picture - the ultimate image that was there all along - do we really understand anything about ourselves. Perhaps when we stop thinking in terms of time, we can start thinking in terms of that bigger picture. Will I stay another year in Japan? I'm not sure. A year is an odd unit of time. It sounds long to think about it, flies by when it happens, and seems to almost have never existed once it becomes a memory. Either way, I know that when I leave, it will be with a smile, both for everything I've learned and loved in this country, and for everything I have to look forward to after.
And speaking of time, I just got back from a two-week vacation with one of my best friends. I'll expand on it more in another post, but those two weeks felt more expansive than almost any other measure of time I've felt here. I visited Tokyo, Kyoto, Nara, Kobe, and Osaka and took quite a lot of photos. Most of the ones below are from Tokyo, but expect to see the other cities in coming posts.
Lastly, I am a new member of a photo collective called The Sunday Huddle. I've really admired their photographers' work for awhile and I'm super excited and honored to be collaborating with them now. Check out the website at thesundayhuddle.com
Cameras Used: Nikon FM2, Nikon FM10
Film: Portra 400, Natura 1600
the emptiness and fulfillment it creates
cute old couple with linked arms
-M
such a fascinating perspective you have here. great shots!
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